this is really stupid guys

I lost my first real commissioner because I refused to draw something sexual? I thought they understood but they just blocked me. I don't understand why either, I was polite and overly generous and even went along with it when they changed ideas after I had already sketched something out. I can accept it if someone doesn't want me to draw for them, but I think it's really rude to just block someone without explanation in the middle of their conversation for sticking with their standards. If they just said "no thank you" or something I could have gone with that. I don't know if they were expecting me to come raging to their page about how I "couldn't draw for them" or whatever, but really I'm so much better than that. It only reflects poorly on them because it shows what they would have done in my place.

well guess what commissioners I have a life outside of you and half the time I don't care about your dumb characters
only ask me for art if you actually care, because I'm trying to balance so many things and I don't want to waste time on someone who will give it a six second look and a "thanks".
I draw for people because truth be told, I love doing this. I love people like MarbleMyst and Ty-Tanium (and more people too!) who actually appreciate my art and are grateful.
I know it's really my fault because I was the one who opened this up. I just really don't want to be another person who draws people "stuff", I want to draw because I like making people happy (I would never admit to this in real life though, I'm too proud).
Usually my vents are just a collection of ramblings and suppressed angers, and this proved to be no different. It probably wouldn't make sense to anyone that's not in my head so I don't why I bother with these deviantart journal things when I could just write them all down somewhere.